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  • Hweeying

I guess tonight is one of those nights. Incessant mind-chatters, thoughts going to all of the deep, dark and sad places. Feeling an all time low on humanity and love, filling myself with never ending questions that have no answers and unintentionally plaguing my heart with doubts and insecurities. It's the kind of night where talking to somebody wouldn't help.

If you know me well enough, you will know that every single day of my life, I find myself abhorred at how ugly and disgusting humans are and can be. From simple and common things like hypocrisy, being rude/inconsiderate and being fake, to more complicated issues like various crimes, rape and murder. As much as I try to see the good in people, I get reminded day after day of how ugly this world is; how scary humans truly are. Day to day observations of inconsiderate commuters on the public transport, rude and self-entitled adults, how fake everyone can be. Daily news of small to big crimes around the world. I often find myself asking, "why?" Why do they have to be so impatient? Why do they have to be so fake? Why do they have to be so rude? Why do they have to be so inconsiderate? Why do they have to rob? Why do they have to rape? Why do they have to abuse? Why do they have to kill?...and the list of why goes on. I know, I am human as well. To be honest, sometimes that reality scares me too. But because I feel so much negativity about the human race, I try every day to be a good decent person.

And the thing about love? It is too complex for me to put the entirety of my thoughts into words, there are so many areas I would like to tap into. The thing about love is that everyone yearns for it. Some of them deserves it. Most of them gets wrecked by it. The thing about love is that like life, it is an exceedingly fragile thing. Beautiful to have, frightening to lose. There are countless of couples out there portraying the most loving side of themselves, so pure and sweet and true that whoever sees will be undeniably envious. But how many of these couples actually end up marrying and living the rest of their lives together till death do them part? I find the fragility of love truly heartbreaking. It saddens me, how people change at an astronomical rate and love and words itself have cheapened to this extent. How sex is no longer of a sacred, meaningful, beautiful and soulful emotional connection between man and wife, but is now of a common, typical act between the genders, with or without the encompassing of true love. To be brute, majority of people have made themselves so easy now. Men and women's chastities have become nothing but old-fashioned and outdated, and cheapened. And that itself is sorely saddening.

I find it desolate how words have been devalued. How people can go from one relationship to the next, saying the same things they have said to each person. e.g. I love you, I want to marry you, I won't leave you, etc. Too many words on repeat from one individual to the next, how much of it do they really mean? It is so sad, how you can give your all to someone, be with him/her for years, and still end up falling apart. You can be the best partner, yet still end up being cheated on. You can love someone like he/she is your entire world, and you can still end up being abandoned by your world because of change. You can love and live for someone, and still end up being not good enough. You can marry, and end up getting a divorce. There are so much to lose, investing your feelings and getting into a relationship. Yet we would all choose to get into it over and over again. Pray every day, despite the digging insecurities, that this one will be worth it.

Summarized most of my thoughts into this post - I could write a book if I didn't. Ha. Time to rest my chattering mind. Good night.

  • Hweeying

Updated: May 21, 2018

We have finally launched it - our very own bakery business, The Better Half. Initially set for the establishment of a bakery coffeeshop combined, I remember my partner and I brainstorming on the name of our business some time back last year. He came out with The Better Half playfully at one point, saying that this is a business he is setting up with his better half. We brushed it off after a good cheesy laugh, then I thought hey, that's a pretty good name as it really speaks up for what our entire business encompasses and is about! Apart from us being each others' better half, he's the baker and I'm the barista, and our vision is to set up a humble bakery coffeeshop to bring together what we are both passionate in - bakes and coffee, which happen to be each others' better half as well, as bakes and coffee just complements each other so well.

We went through so much together through this journey, and as with life comes complications, we eventually had to painstakingly forgo the establishment of the bakery coffeeshop we have always worked and planned so hard for. After a down period, we picked ourselves up and unwilling to cave in and give up, we have decided to have a very humble beginning by starting our bakery online. From here, we will work even harder to get our business picking up and with the same vision in our hearts, we will work towards setting up a bakery coffeeshop where we can bring our passions (bakes and coffee) together in a comforting space, and provide a personalised service to the community.

Yup this long read is the story behind The Better Half. If anyone ever reads this... know that you can get yummy bakes from us at www.thebetterhalfsg.com! :)

  • Hweeying

It's scary, just how fast time passes us by. Already, I have turned twenty three days back. Nothing elaborate, just quality time spent over quality meals with my loved ones, which I really cherish. Being a year older, it got me thinking more about what exactly I would want to do with my life down the years ahead. Typical life conundrum for the age twenties. Thing is, I know exactly what I would want to do - that is, what makes me happy. Trouble is, where my passions lie will not earn me a living. And that is so saddening and maddening at the same time, because I am such a strong believer of "people need to do what makes them happy," and that we should never spend a day doing what makes us unhappy just for the mere sake of earning. Because. You will never know what will happen tomorrow. And we should not live with regrets at what we did not do or pursue.

Life has been tough on me recently, but I try to constantly remind myself of my belief and tell myself that some risks are meant to be taken. You will never know what you can or cannot achieve without even taking the first bold step out to try. It is always the hardest to step out, but once you do, you may surprise yourself with what will come. And if you do fail, you still win because you get to learn, and grow stronger. And I remind myself of that every single day, to press on. I would like to pass that reminder on to you too, should you be feeling comprehensive about what you would like to take a step out in. Press on!