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I was asked to paint live during an event at First Congregational church in Bellevue this past Friday. The commission was for me

Live Painting

to paint an abstraction of the event as it was happening. Here is the thing about devotion and spirituality: we most times get them wrong. Giving is receiving and knowing that life is not what happens to you but how you react to it is where faith comes in. Having the inner strength to face your demons and admit to your self that you are beautifully flawed is no easy task. Once you can do it though it is liberating. Once you accept your shortcomings you can start working on forgiving your self, and in doing so you forgive others and you transcend. I was not at ease while painting. I was situated at the alter with my back to a huge audience watching me paint and go through this. See, here is the thing about artists; we get weird when we paint and self conscious, it isn’t easy to be watched while your brain is working so fast in multiple directions and your emotions are pulling all the strings. I was thinking about the timing the event started at 7 and it finishes at 10. I had to time my work to be done at 10. This is where the challenge was because I didn’t prepare and couldn’t prepare for it since it had to be a reflection of the events spirit as  it happened. All in all I would repeat it 100 times over. Yay to live painting

"Everything you can imagine is real. ” Picasso

"Everything you can imagine is real" When it comes to art, this was a natural process for me. I dream most of my paintings. I see them in my day-time visions and day dreams. I believe we choose our dreams, we choose to be happy or unhappy. I choose to be happy about one aspect of my painting and dwell on it meditatively and then recreate it in another painting. Isn't this the basic premise for everything in life? we get what we choose to think about? to co-create? to be a forceful proactive doer and not a reactive person to life's ebbs and flows?

We can all sulk after missed opportunities but we can also choose to dismiss this thought and invest our precious neural pathways creating a new positive thought, one that helps us soar up high in the sky of our desires.

P.S: This is a photo from my last year's show: Atari Pains at A/NT Gallery in Seattle Center.

Just like in life, I can never 100% plan my painting. I can plan a direction of where it will go, a general idea of the feeling it will convey but I can never know 100% the outcome! Why? Unpredictability allows freedom of exploration from within. It follows the ebb and flow of my mental and emotional state that change and metamorphosizes (I think I just made up this word) as time progresses. Even if I know what the subject of the painting is, I can’t predict how I will convey the features and the emotional intensity in it, this is why I love painting so much. The freedom it allows me knows no bounds. It is how I process my life, challenges and the major turning points.

I have been known to always hit the ground running into any goal I set my mind to, some caution from the price you pay. I have always found the price to be worth the outcome in every decision I made, including embracing my art career full-time with all of its challenges and uncertainties.

Painting Process - Embracing the Unpredictable is a Rebellious Act