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"It was just a lot of chaos, and as it went on it got worse," is what Shane Kamban shared about his experience with decades of addiction.


Shane is now 7 yrs into his recovery, a successful business owner, and he is fulfilling his dream of running a recovery group called Life Recovery in Tuscarawas County, Ohio. Life is good these days, but decades of addiction nearly killed him.


As years of addiction grew so did his hunger for numbing the internal pain brought on by a deadly crack cocaine habit. His binges would take him into dark neighborhoods for "days on end."



"Going into my 30's I started to want to stop, but couldn't"



"Going into my 30's I started to want to stop, but couldn't," he explained as he candidly painted the picture of what addiction is really like. A trip to rehab in his early 30's began planting seeds of recovery in his heart even though on the way to his first rehab he said he, "seriously thought about jumping out of the car on the way there, it scared me to death."


Into his mid thirties it was relapses and more trips to rehabs as his addiction got worse and worse. "There came a point where the consequences finally caught up to me and the wife and the kids packed up and left...there were many times I was crying on my way to go use because I didn't want to."


He recalls the last night of his using as he was laying in bed with a pistol, "I didn't want to blow my brains out, I didn't want to live but I didn't want to die...it just felt like darkness dancing all around me...there was a moment when God spoke to me through my youngest daughter's voice and said please daddy don't we love you."



"there was a moment when God spoke to me through my youngest daughter's voice"



He remembers going to a prayer meeting that same night and laying on his face crying as he, "surrendered his life to Christ in a full way." He continued, "when I woke up the next day I was different, and I knew I was different. I woke up feeling like a different person. The urge to use was gone."


That moment was over 7 yrs ago and his work on the road to recovery began, but his lifestyle of addiction had planted seeds of confusion in his son Austin Kamban's heart.


Austin is now over 2 yrs into his recovery and is an up and coming Christian Hop Hop artist, but he recalls, "being very aware of the chaos in his home at a very young age, even at 6."




"There was nothing I wanted more then for everyone to just get along," he recalls about his childhood. "I remember going to school and just putting on a smile, and we would always, kind of, be protective of the secrecy of my dad's addiction," Austin explained.



"I would always fight on behalf of my dad, because I cared about him."



Even in the midst of the chaos growing up the now sober Christian Hip Hop artist stated, "I would always fight on behalf of my dad, because I cared about him."


He made a vow to never get sucked into the death grip of addiction, "even though my dad had these problems I just remember saying, I never ever want to do that...but what finally broke for me was when my parents got divorced."


Austin's determination to never touch drugs lessened and shortly after his parents divorced he tried marijuana, this opened the door to addiction in his own life.


"Instantly I was smoking weed every day, just to numb the pain," he shared. His addiction grew and eventually his life spiraled out of control with cocaine use and daily drinking.


His rock bottom came after he got into a 70 mph collision on the highway while blacked out from drinking and cocaine use. "I think I remember screaming, maybe," he expalined.


"I remember getting out of the car completely unscathed...to this day I know it was God protecting me," Austin expressed with conviction. By this point his father Shane Kamban was starting his recovery and had started his Life Recovery group. Austin began going to meetings after the near death experience on the highway.



"To this day I know it was God protecting me"



Early recovery was a bit of a struggle but he knew, "I don't have to run anymore. I can tell through these meetings and the transformation that my father had went through, and through what I was hearing, I was starting to learn that the problem was with me not with my dad."


Austin's relationship with God grew, "and that's when transformation started to happen." He now makes music that is focused on Jesus and recovery, he is involved in the community, he speaks in churches and recovery meetings and he helps others through his experience, strength, and hope.


The recovering father and son have a restored and healthy relationship these days. As the two of them sat on a couch in the foyer of the church they attend it was obvious that they are friends.


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"The morning before I got sober, my breakfast consisted of nearly a bottle of red wine and a few thick lines of cocaine," is what Lisa F. Smith wrote about her own addiction and journey into recovery. A high achieving lawyer and writer, Smith has shared candidly about her journey through addiction and into recovery and the high addiction rates among practicing law professionals.


Immediately after receiving her law degree she realized that the world of high achieving lawyers is filled with alcohol and drug abuse.


A 2016 study done by the Hazelden Betty Ford Foundation and the American Bar Association Commission on Lawyer Assistance Programs revealed some startling statistics:


-Up to 21 percent of licensed, employed lawyers qualify as problem drinkers

-Lawyers under age 30, it’s 31.9 percent.

-Compare that to 6.8 percent of all Americans who have a drinking problem.


On top of that participants were asked about their use of licit and illicit drugs, including sedatives, marijuana, stimulants and opioids: It was a staggering 74% that admitted to using stimulants on a weekly basis.



Having personally lived through 13 yrs of addiction I can say with one hundred percent certainty that addiction does not discriminate. We should not be shocked when entertainers, athletes, lawyers, and so on come forward and admit to having issues with addiction.


The propensity to try to hide it for as long as possible is a common theme with all who struggle with addiction. The problem with high achievers is that they have the money to fuel that addiction for longer, and the means to try and hide it.


During my 13 yrs of active addiction I achieved some things.


I was an all region football player in high school, pain pills were a close friend during that time.


I made three hip hop albums that received flattering responses from local magazines, I was high the entire time.


I wrote for a university newspaper and ended up receiving scholarship money because of my performance, while I was also snorting Oxycontin in school bathroom stalls.


Of course I was never able to sustain any short lived success, and any success that did come always came crashing down on me.


Our society has come a long way towards breaking the stigma of addiction, but my experience has shown me that a big misunderstanding still exists when it comes to understanding addiction.


We think it is easy to spot the issues of addiction in the less fortunate or "lower class", but did you know that addiction rates are actually higher in the ranks of the high achievers?


In a 2019 article MD Daniel Hochman wrote "Not only are high achievers not protected from addiction, but they are more likely to have it. About 1 in 4 female surgeons and 1 in 4 male lawyers have alcohol use disorder, and executives have 40% higher rates of drug use than other occupations."


Addiction doesn't care about your age, gender, race, bank account, background, achievements or lack there of. Addiction is out to kill, steal, and destroy and whether you are successful or not, it could care less.


We might make more progress with high achievers that struggle with addiction if we understood that addiction can hit anyone, regardless of their work ethic or IQ.


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Now clean and sober, Lisa F. Smith had this to say about the process of accepting the reality of having a disease and trying to get help,


"When doctors strongly suggested a 28-day stay at a rehabilitation facility, I refused to go. It would have meant telling my law firm the real reason I had been out “sick.” Instead, I went to outpatient rehab two nights a week. One week and one day after checking into the hospital, I was back at work. It was not a smart approach after being diagnosed with a chronic disease."


She did indeed step into recovery and is now living in long term recovery, but the road was a bit rocky at first.


She continued, "When people learn that I’m in recovery, they often say that they wouldn’t have guessed “that” about me and that I don’t look like a drug addict. Somehow, I don’t think that similar comments are made to people with diabetes or rheumatoid arthritis."


How are you looking at people (regardless of their achievements or lack thereof) that struggle with addiction?


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A Percocet and OxyContin addiction nearly destroyed Tim Mosley's life, AKA Legendary Hip Hop Producer Timbaland.


You may or may not know who Timbaland is, but he has been producing mega hits for the biggest stars in the music industry for over two decades. Timbaland has helped sky rocket the careers of musicians like Missy Elliott, Drake, Jay- Z, Rihanna, Beyoncé, and Justin Timberlake.


It was a dental procedure for a root canal that got him a OxyContin and Percocet prescription in 2011. He immediately started abusing them. In an interview with Menshealth Magazine he said he doesn’t recall how many pills he was taking a day but it was, “way over the limit.”

The highly sought after producer has a shelf full of prestigious awards including 21 Grammy Nominations and 4 awards. But his creativity and skill set, which is second to none, wasn’t going to save him from the death drip of addiction.

As his addiction spiraled our of control the IRS came knocking for 4 million in back taxes in 2013. He stated that the pills gave him a, “feeling of not caring, of just being free...traveling, doing shows, popping ’em, having fun, just being ignorant.”


Addiction disconnected him so far from reality that he owed millions of dollars in back taxes, had been diagnosed with pre onset diabetes, was 100lbs over weight, and all he could think about was more pills.

It was then he turned to God.

Mosley was raised a southern baptist and admittedly strayed far from his roots. He now follows the nondenominational pastor T. D. Jakes. The turning point from addiction to recovery was when he made the decision to quit all by himself, “Just me and God,” the four time Grammy Award winner stated.

“This was the path chosen for me. God was rebuilding my character,“ the sober Timbaland said. He weaned himself off and recalls it being, “One of the toughest things I’ve been through. The only things that got me through it were my kids, my girl, the help of God keeping my mind still.” “God has me under construction, which I’m still under,” the recovering addict Timbaland said, “God needed me to be clear so I could see what is needed, not what I want.”

If he can do it, anyone can! #wedorecover

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